THE DESERT SALT PAN: EMPTY AND FULL; SENESCENT AND REBORN

March 29, 2016  •  3 Comments

Patterns on Badwater Basin Surface No.1 - Death Valley, CA - 2015Patterns on Badwater Basin Surface No.1 - Death Valley, CA - 2015

 

“I said nothing at the time, just ran my fingertips along the edge of the human-shaped emptiness that had been left inside me.”

  Haruki Murakami, Blind Willow, Sleeping Woman

 

Standing at the edge of the salt pan on the floor of Death Valley I think of sugar frosting, chocolate foam and chocolate chip ice cream. I reach down and pop a very tiny piece from my fingertip to my lips.  It tastes like table salt, and it tastes surprisingly good. The sweetness I briefly imagined was mere ephemeral wish fulfillment.

I am poised expectantly at Badwater, the most popular tourist attraction in Death Valley National Park. Couples and small groups stroll with casual curiosity along a well-worn white boulevard of packed salt out towards a glimmering horizon. Is it five hundred feet or five thousand or five miles or fifty? The great epic landscapes of the desert often play havoc with our ability to estimate distance.  Here people simply give up and turn back when they see others ahead do the same. This inability to understand how far things really are can be deadly in the desert wilderness.

 

Tourists at Badwater Basin - Death Valley, CA - 2015Tourists at Badwater Basin - Death Valley, CA - 2015

Tourists at Badwater Basin - Death Valley, CA - 2015
Top photo: Patterns on Badwater Basin Surface No.1 - Death Valley, CA - 2015

 

I watch these casual pedestrians and hear their voices, sometime serious, sometimes just chatty. Some folks talk about the geology before them, others about mundane events, office politics last week, or their children who have scampered ahead. One couple, hand in hand, ponder the look of the salt pan on a night illuminated by a full moon. A few couples walk in silence, either deep in personal thought or enraptured by the immensity of what lies all about them.

I crouch with my journal trying to capture my thoughts, and then sit on my small portable writer’s chair and listen. Few are speaking English and I think many of the travelers are from other countries, yet drawn to this unique park with the prospect of the landscape swathed in a light of unknown depth. The photographer struggles with the light and with his tilt-shift camera lens. Later he remarks on the same thing I noticed. He thinks that many of the people are visiting from older countries. Their infrastructures have filled the land before the idea of public lands was birthed in the United States a hundred years ago.

 

Osceola Refetoff Photographs Salt Formations at Badwater Basin - Death Valley, CA - 2015Osceola Refetoff Photographs Salt Formations at Badwater Basin - Death Valley, CA - 2015

Osceola Refetoff Photographs Salt Formations at Badwater Basin - Death Valley, CA - 2015 (Photo: Christopher Langley)

 

There are parks, but few protected lands of this size. Even more atypical for these visitors is the wilderness of the American West. Parks in Europe are tamer, more manicured, having been altered with the intention of improving upon nature. The parks of the world, now part of the Anthropocene Age, have human-disturbed landscapes, roads, even lawns and interpretive kiosks and centers. They do have exhibits of pristine nature contained within, but most parks are primarily modified for human interaction.

Telescope Peak’s shadow sweeps suddenly across the land, with the darkness moving as a land-devouring murkiness. We are both unprepared for the precipitous onset of dwindling light. We will return again tomorrow, a little earlier this time to extend the “magic hour” of light photographers celebrate.

We are back to the saltpan again. The photographer is striving to capture the unnamable that is before him, as I struggle to understand my compelling feelings. It is all about emptiness. Yet the desert is empty only at first glance. Although there are great sweeping vistas here that my mind struggles to understand, interpret and explain, I cannot capture in words this deep abiding sense I have upon our return to this area.

 

Salt Formations at Badwater Basin - Death Valley, CA - 2015Salt Formations at Badwater Basin - Death Valley, CA - 2015

Salt Formations at Badwater Basin - Death Valley, CA - 2015

 

Edward Abbey warns against searching for meaning in the desert. He fears, I think, bringing meaning to the desert beyond what is eventually there. The desert is neither empty nor full. The meaning is constructed not of the desert itself. The desert is there to be cognized and perceived, devoid of meaning. It could be argued it is empty of meaning.

Yet I cannot achieve this idea, grasp it and hold it to me. I crave meaning; struggle to capture it with words. The desert is in ways as no other landscape. I carry a Christian culture deep within me, molding my thoughts and behavior. In that religion there is the concept of kenosis: the emptying of the ego that opens one to God. Rune Grauland in “Contrasts: A Defense of Desert Writings” states, “For Abbey, too, the desert is a silent, solitary, contemplative place in which one often looses one’s self yet gains something in return.”

I am not alone, surrounded by strangers, but really alone as only humans can be in a crowd. It is a quandary, an emptiness of soul.

I turn to the facts of the “bad water.”

 

Standing Water at Badwater Basin - Death Valley, CA - 2005Standing Water at Badwater Basin - Death Valley, CA - 2005

Standing Water at Badwater Basin - Death Valley, CA - 2005

 

The Badwater Basin is a marvel of surprise. First there is the pool with water collecting year round. But in the summer it is empty, because evaporation is so great it exceeds the water collecting at the end of its long, tedious journey. The salt pan is constantly changing, as if it were reaching teleologically to satisfy the biologist’s definition of life itself.

Salt crystals expand, pushing the crust of salt into rough, chaotic forms. Newly formed crystals ooze between mudcracks, sketching strange patterns on the surface of the salt flat. Passing rainstorms wash off windblown dust and generate a fresh layer of blinding white salt. Floods create temporary lakes that dissolve the salts back into solution, starting the process all over again.

 Death Valley Interpretation Kiosk (on site)


More astounding is the origin of the water. Once ice age snow, now melted, it mixes with present day rain falling on mountains hundreds of miles away in Nevada. It then seeps through porous limestone bedrock and begins a long underground flow through the regional aquifer. It emerges along the fault line of the valley floor, and is fresh until it mixes with the salts that have been deposited in the basin over eons.

 

Facing North from Badwater Basin - Death Valley, CA - 2015Facing North from Badwater Basin - Death Valley, CA - 2015

Facing North from Badwater Basin - Death Valley, CA - 2015 (Photo: Christopher Langley)

 

Yet instead of an empty barren wasteland, the pool supports diverse life forms. In the area there is Salicornia (pickleweed), several species of aquatic worms and insects, and the Badwater Snail (Assiminea infirma), which has adapted and now can only exist in these extreme conditions.

I feel now a vacuity within as my skin’s sense of touch focuses on the small flies murmuring about me. They must be seeking sustenance on my salty sweat. An intense realization strikes me that my old skin matches the skin of the saltpan: splotchy, rough and worn.

I and the salt pan are one. I await the sound of silence here that explains it.

Flies, how do you make it out here? You ignore the earth’s salty skin and tickle mine instead. What is there on either skin to nourish you? The skin of the salt pan is a skin of extended patience yet subtle sensation. My skin is old and wrinkled yet still able to respond to the erotic touch and painful attack.

 

Patterns on Badwater Basin Surface No.2 - Death Valley, CA - 2015Patterns on Badwater Basin Surface No.2 - Death Valley, CA - 2015

Patterns on Badwater Basin Surface No.2 - Death Valley, CA - 2015

 

It is my skin that breaths and heals and holds this bag of water and bone together. My fluids are salty reminding me that we crawled from the sea long ago. The salt pan can heal and reform with water and sun. All this leaves the emptiness that surrounds me now within me. I am one with the desert, with the salt, with the small life of flies on my skin.

I realize it is not the desert that is empty. I am empty and in that emptiness awaits a new fullness. For a passing moment I am the desert salt pan: empty and full; epic and intimate; senescent and reborn.

Then I am back to me.

C.L.

 

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Comments

3.Catherine Ruane(non-registered)
My place of birth is in the desert. The view of forever was located on my daily horizon. If there is a God your chance of finding it will be in forever places like the open desert or it's fraternal and salty twin, the open ocean. Both are places where a curious human is reduced to an appropriate size and confronted by something eternal. The experience is not adequately expressed by the words stored in my memory. Therefore.....Thank you for your own beautiful prose. Thank you for the thought filled photographs. Your work feeds me with kinship.
2.desertdispatrches(non-registered)
Thank you again for your thoughtful responses to this dispatch after the others you have already made. I actually went back four times before I really understood the feelings and sense perceptions at Badwater were actually all about.

There is a rich interface between Christian and Buddhist "emptiness." When you read Meister Eckhardt, for instance, he leads you to realize you cannot even empty yourself because that emptying cannot be truly empty because you have brought the concept and looked to experience emptiness and that preconceives and thus constructs the emptiness.
I find it comforting as you describe similar experiences. The desert continues to beguile, call and tantalize me.
Can you ever finish reading Murakami? Still have several volumes by my bedside. Thanks for your interest and challenging reflections. Makes this project very worthwhile for us.
1.Karl Young(non-registered)
Wow, beautiful dispatch guys; I was just in Badwater last week and you captured so articulately the plethora of impressions that came over me - though, I'm not sure how good a thing that is :-), i.e. another thing you capture wonderfully is the ambiguity of the impressions that must come over anyone that is honest about what they experience in the desert; maybe that's best left as it is. I found my self comparing things like how I felt about the vastness, knowing I could get back in my car, with how the Manly expedition must have felt viewing similar scenes.

To me the emptiness that the Mojave conveys is more like the Buddhist notion of emptiness than the conventional notion of being completely devoid of anything. That emptiness is a vastness that makes it difficult to make clear and independent identifications.

I was really struck by a lot of the same things you describe, e.g. having such a lack of a sense of scale that Telescope peak being 1000 ft. high would have made as much sense to me as it being 11,000 ft. high. And I was also struck by the number of non US visitors and wondered what sorts of contrasts the vast desert parks provides for them, re. parklands in other parts of the world. But I knew there were no Germans; a German friend of mine told me that Germans only like to go to to Death Valley in July and August.

And damn you guys for making me want to read another Murakami novel ! :-)
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